Honestly… I was NOT going to post about this because…. WELL, sometimes if you don’t know my HEART it can come across the wrong way.
HOWEVER, let me bring it back for you.
It is clear… From my post on Facebook yesterday that MOST of you know me as BONNIE ENGLE, 15 star diamond, top 5 coach in the company and a huge team of leaders! But what you don’t know if just how different my life looked 2 years ago. SURE, I was lucky in love, had great friends, a great family that loved me. HOWEVER… I was…. Drowning.
Drowning in my job, in what I wanted from life, in debt.. Basically in every sense of the word. And I thought PSH, THATS JUST HOW LIFE IS! THAT always seemed to be highlighted – no, MAGNIFIED – by BIRTHDAYS. They became such a big huge source of ANXIETY, frustration, doubt and sadness for me. And the FIRST time I felt this was the year I met Andrew Engle. I loved this man SO FREAKING HARD and all I wanted was to SHOW him that love every day, but especially I wanted to be able to GIVE HIM everything he ever wanted and deserved. BIRTHDAYS and HOLIDAYS were always so full of “we can’t this year, maybe next year” or “once we are out of debt” followed by a whole ton of tears.
NOW…. I KNOW what you’re thinking and I know what some will say “It’s not about a physical present, it’s about the love” AND YES, you are correct! It’s NOT about the present. But let’s be HONEST HERE: seeing the face of the person you LOVE when you give them a big present FOLLOWED BY the feeling of PURE FREEDOM – BECAUSE after that gift you didn’t have to “cut back” for the next couple months to make up for it… Well, that’s priceless.
For Andrew’s birthday when we first moved here we were still in about 180k of debt (2 years ago) so I had to FINANCE a REALLY small gift for him and the year after that, we didn’t do presents because the anxiety wasn’t worth it.
This year is his 30th. And we’ll spend the day in the SUN together, at the beach and working OUT because that’s what we love. But the other day…. BEING ABLE to walk into Best Buy after having watched him look at, compare, price out, save up, and research TV’s FOR 4 YEARS and say “I GOT THIS FOR YOU BABE, HAPPY BIRTHDAY and NO we don’t want to hear your finance options…” and not get a sinking pit feeling in my stomach when I swiped the card… Well that, was PRICELESS.
If you asked me what the best part of this business is… It would be QUALITY OF LIFE.
I was never someone who felt like I didn’t have to worry. And I’m still coming out of that. But to be introduced to a company where you can instantly get to work on changing your circumstance and never ever have to wonder if another birthday we will have to say “not this year” to have created a space in life where we are now not afraid to have children because of our massive debt. Now THAT, my friends, is something that I cannot NOT share. If I didn’t share it, how would the person reading my posts know the possibility, know the struggle, know that in 2 years with this business your quality of LIFE can change.
This past 4 years we have been in EXTREME saving mode till we paid off our entire debts! We would have never ever been able to do this until THAT was done!
Happy soon to be 30th baby. I love you more than words can say.. You SAVED me…. And NOW it’s my turn! <3 <3
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